Im feelin so lousy..and i dun know y
Monday, November 07, 2005

And the above title reads...i dun know y i feel this way.maybe its because im starting work tomorrow after such a long and joyful break..maybe its because i dun have a bike yet...haiyah it just driving me nuts thinking about when im gonna finish my damn ns. i know i only have 10 more months to go but it seems like forever la...help help!!but what the heck right..there is just nothin i can do but be patient.i really miss those days when i used to ride and listen to my mp3 and just hit the highway at speeds topping 130km/h.the feeling is just so great...when im doing that all my problems that i have just magically just vanishes away and i find my self in a space where nothin else matters.God i really miss the feeling.And also those days when i used to go to jb with cutsie yanni and eat alot and buy stuff and just laugh and laugh and laugh..I just hope i get a bike real soon.lately i have been thinking alot abt whan im gonna do after ns.ultimately my goal will be and has always be to be a millionaire and weather thats fated for me or not i dun re4ally care..i just wanna werk my ass off and see what happens.it really hurts me when we go for raye and my mums friends asks my mum what her child are doin..shanu is gonna be a pilot...jep is gonna be a graduate..and when it comes to my turn...there really is nothin much to say..i do feel hurt ..really..but what can i do..this path has already been written for me i guess.Anyways back to what im gonna do agfter ns..honestly i dun have a clue. i might try flying and if that dosent happen then any manly jobs will do..cargo line maybe..or anything really.Anywya im used to hard work..has been werking all kind of jobs and so i think i can pretty much handle any job already.i guess thats abt it for today...dreading going to werk tomorrow...i miss u yanni.

11:53 PM
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