[TeNi]

Im not good at this game of love :(
Saturday, September 24, 2005

you once told me that Andi would never be in your choice...but i guess i was foolish and too innocent to believe you.. coz now he is in your choice and you like him as how you like me.. thinking back on all the sacrficies that i made just for you.. like when i had myt bike how i always see you at yishun and spent time with you almost everyday...bringing you to interview for emirates and taking leave from my work just for you..picking you up from work and sending you back...and most recently still wanting to see you although i dun have a bike and although yishun and tampines are sooo far apart.plus i have to change bus at yis int and sometimes even have to walk as i dun have enough bus fare...i still have the heart to sacrifice just for you.What has andi done that you like him as much as u like me?Has he sacrificed as much as i did?It hurts to know that after all that i have done for you..all it takes for another guy is to sweet talk to you and u like him as much as you like me.. If i treated you like a friend u can just dream on abt me being so nice towards you and always wanting to spend time with you...i treated you as though u were my girl friend..its hurting to know that after all that i have done you are still keeping your options open...it hurts to see you mingleing ard and calling him sweet heart while i am being so loyal and refuse to respond to any other of my girl friends..i guess i have no choice but to keep my options open too..i hate being in line for a girl...feels like i dun have what it takes to be with you...feels like im not good enough coz if i was good enough you would surely want me to be yourts.If i am not good enough for you than so be it...I have said this to all my girlfriends and i shall say it to u..its never my loss...

11:34 PM
mypredatoryinstincts.

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I went thru many r'ships.Nt 1 was rite 4 me.I met U.I tot it'll b e same.I am so scared 2 fall in love wit U.@ tyms,I dont even bother gettg close 2 U.Yet ur e 1 i wanna b wit.Sumtyms I wish I neva mit U.Bt wen I hear ur voice,I end up thankg U.4 bein wit me,carin,puttg up wit me,my temper n mood swings.I noe u'll alwys b der 4 my 1's,nids.Wen I’m not wit U.I tink of U.I’m missing U evryday,nobody noes it,not even U!I'm fallin in luv wit U.I dunno how 2 put it!I can't find e words 2 say n tell it like it is?I'll jus close my eyes,let my heart lead e way.Evrytym I tink abt U.I'm reminded of how we r fated 2 mit.I wonder wat I'd do witout U,ur healing smile,ur words of faith,e carin n sensitive way U touch me,liftin me,jus wen I nid it most.Witout U,Wat wud I b now?I cant imagine existg in a world wer sum1 doesnt luv me e way U do.U’re e only 1 whoeva undastood,accepted me 4 who I am.Ur luv has always been n will b e greatest gift 2 me n I tink ur nothing but amazing.

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