[TeNi]

Im not good at this game of love :(
Saturday, September 24, 2005

you once told me that Andi would never be in your choice...but i guess i was foolish and too innocent to believe you.. coz now he is in your choice and you like him as how you like me.. thinking back on all the sacrficies that i made just for you.. like when i had myt bike how i always see you at yishun and spent time with you almost everyday...bringing you to interview for emirates and taking leave from my work just for you..picking you up from work and sending you back...and most recently still wanting to see you although i dun have a bike and although yishun and tampines are sooo far apart.plus i have to change bus at yis int and sometimes even have to walk as i dun have enough bus fare...i still have the heart to sacrifice just for you.What has andi done that you like him as much as u like me?Has he sacrificed as much as i did?It hurts to know that after all that i have done for you..all it takes for another guy is to sweet talk to you and u like him as much as you like me.. If i treated you like a friend u can just dream on abt me being so nice towards you and always wanting to spend time with you...i treated you as though u were my girl friend..its hurting to know that after all that i have done you are still keeping your options open...it hurts to see you mingleing ard and calling him sweet heart while i am being so loyal and refuse to respond to any other of my girl friends..i guess i have no choice but to keep my options open too..i hate being in line for a girl...feels like i dun have what it takes to be with you...feels like im not good enough coz if i was good enough you would surely want me to be yourts.If i am not good enough for you than so be it...I have said this to all my girlfriends and i shall say it to u..its never my loss...

11:34 PM
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Truly Madly Deeply
Tuesday, September 06, 2005

I cant believe i am falling in love again..i am happy...infact very happy but at the same time i am scared too..scared to be hurt again..scared to be cheated on again and most of all..scared to be left behind all alone.But like you said...every relationship is a big risk.And i am ready to take this risk. the question keeps playin on my minmd...like a track on a cd that is put on repeat mode..the question is will u accept my offer? or will i get rejected...rejected not because u dun like me but rejected because you are not ready.The answer to that question lies only in your heart and sadly i cannot see through it. I guess i just have to face it and challenge the risk. but one thing for sure....i hope you will be mine someday. :) you know how u are u biatch..hahah HUG!!!!

2:14 AM
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